[ When Rey puts her mind to it, it actually isn't as difficult as she'd initially imagined to tap into the Force, to feel Ahsoka aboard the ship like she's only a room away from her and not several (plus a long-winded corridor).
There are others she feels too — a few she's familiar with, and a few she'd never met (strange), but she ignores them for now. Her path takes her past the mess hall and a few of the dorm rooms and quieter spaces, and up towards the oxygen gardens where everything is full of life. It's the greenest space on the ship, and admittedly one of her favourite spots too. It reminds her so much of Leia, and how much she misses her. ]
Hello?
[ It's quiet here, and warm, and she lets her voice carry as she walks amongst the trees and flora, drawing closer to Ahsoka's presence. ]
[ ahsoka is cross-legged, going through her meditation exercises. it was never her strongest point as a padawan. much like anakin, she never enjoyed it much. when the jedi died, her teachings were all she had left and they calmed the storm within. now she makes it a habit to come to the gardens, where life still blooms in the stillness of space and reach out to the force.
[ Something even beyond the call of one Jedi to another, someone hurting, someone needing comfort and familiarity and likeness, all of it together couldn't quite explain that other thing that compels Rey to come to Ahsoka's call.
Her expression is serious, thoughtful, but her eyes when she meets the other Jedi are kind and understanding.
She nods, gesturing to the space beside Ahsoka, a quiet ask of permission to join her. ]
[ which leaves her open. rey is stronger for it. ahsoka is no longer so open. no longer reaches out to touch that connection as much. it just leaves her bruised and aching for stars that no longer hang in the sky. ]
I'm glad you came. It's . . . nice to talk to someone who feels the same things I do.
[ The Force is strong within her, and when she looks to Ahsoka through what little she does keep connected, she can feel sadness so deep and so aching, it leaves her hollow with a dull residual pain that scratches at her insides, her connection to the Force leaving her both open and vulnerable. It's different from the kind of cavernous empty that the Dark Side often offers her while she maintains her distance. Resists.
This sadness is born of love and loyalty and it makes Rey want to reach out and take Ahsoka's hand and smooth the bruises away — somehow. In a way she doesn't know how. But she can be here because Ahsoka's right, she does understand (being a part of something and then being apart from that thing), and so she is.
She nods. ]
I can feel your sadness, your loneliness. [ It isn't an accusation or anything more than a simple statement of fact. ] I'm sorry.
[ ahsoka doesn't look particularly shocked or upset. muted as she can be, she knows that her grief have carved groves into her, edges that bump along other people. she'll never be quite as she was, but she can be whoever she chooses to be.
she is a fulcrum now. her grief is a part of her, but it is not her. ]
It's all right. It is something I must bear but it is not the sum of me.
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Date: 2021-03-14 02:29 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2021-03-19 09:16 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-03-21 09:59 pm (UTC)that would explain it
[ Well. At least part of it. Some of her history lessons are still a bit hazy, some of the text missing. ]
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Date: 2021-03-22 12:28 am (UTC)[ and why would they? it'll never be the same again. ]
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Date: 2021-03-28 03:34 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-03-28 03:36 am (UTC)I can't feel the Jedi anymore.
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Date: 2021-04-10 09:49 pm (UTC)[ ... and then: ]
can you feel me?
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Date: 2021-04-11 11:21 am (UTC)It's not the same but it helps.
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Date: 2021-05-03 01:17 am (UTC)(She's still trying to work through what that even is.) ]
do you
would you like some company?
[ No one should be alone, even (and perhaps especially) on this ship. ]
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Date: 2021-05-03 07:56 am (UTC)Where are you?
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Date: 2021-05-24 01:34 am (UTC)i can find you if you'd like
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Date: 2021-05-24 01:44 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-05-30 08:19 pm (UTC)if i try hard enough, i can
[ The ship's walls make it a little difficult but Rey's strong enough, she thinks. ]
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Date: 2021-05-31 12:20 am (UTC)text ➝ action ;
Date: 2021-06-04 02:57 am (UTC)[ When Rey puts her mind to it, it actually isn't as difficult as she'd initially imagined to tap into the Force, to feel Ahsoka aboard the ship like she's only a room away from her and not several (plus a long-winded corridor).
There are others she feels too — a few she's familiar with, and a few she'd never met (strange), but she ignores them for now. Her path takes her past the mess hall and a few of the dorm rooms and quieter spaces, and up towards the oxygen gardens where everything is full of life. It's the greenest space on the ship, and admittedly one of her favourite spots too. It reminds her so much of Leia, and how much she misses her. ]
Hello?
[ It's quiet here, and warm, and she lets her voice carry as she walks amongst the trees and flora, drawing closer to Ahsoka's presence. ]
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Date: 2021-06-04 03:28 am (UTC)and it calls. she opens her eyes to see rey. ]
Hey. You came.
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Date: 2021-06-13 06:08 am (UTC)[ Something even beyond the call of one Jedi to another, someone hurting, someone needing comfort and familiarity and likeness, all of it together couldn't quite explain that other thing that compels Rey to come to Ahsoka's call.
Her expression is serious, thoughtful, but her eyes when she meets the other Jedi are kind and understanding.
She nods, gesturing to the space beside Ahsoka, a quiet ask of permission to join her. ]
I said I would.
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Date: 2021-06-19 10:36 am (UTC)You did. Your connection to the Force is strong.
[ which leaves her open. rey is stronger for it. ahsoka is no longer so open. no longer reaches out to touch that connection as much. it just leaves her bruised and aching for stars that no longer hang in the sky. ]
I'm glad you came. It's . . . nice to talk to someone who feels the same things I do.
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Date: 2021-07-05 05:12 am (UTC)This sadness is born of love and loyalty and it makes Rey want to reach out and take Ahsoka's hand and smooth the bruises away — somehow. In a way she doesn't know how. But she can be here because Ahsoka's right, she does understand (being a part of something and then being apart from that thing), and so she is.
She nods. ]
I can feel your sadness, your loneliness. [ It isn't an accusation or anything more than a simple statement of fact. ] I'm sorry.
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Date: 2021-07-06 03:58 am (UTC)she is a fulcrum now. her grief is a part of her, but it is not her. ]
It's all right. It is something I must bear but it is not the sum of me.